Below are the 7 most recent journal entries recorded in wolfmystic's LiveJournal:

Thursday, July 13th, 2006
2:21 pm	Trailing thought Ok just follow along with me on this trailing thought. I say trailing cause well one thing led to another then another and well you will see. Last night as I lay in bed I got thinking about something and whatever I was thinking triggered the thought that if I end up marrying my current SO I won't be able to make chili cause of the beans. No he isn't allergic to them but just can't have them. ANyways, this reminded me of when i was with a friend, who also can't eat chili cause of the beans, that I had a momentary flash of a scene. The scene was that of my daughter and see too couldn't eat chili. It was then I also remember at a different time of seeing my daughter. She had dark eyes and hair, looked nothing like me but like that of her father. My current SO, BTW has dark eyes and hair. That triggered another memory of feeling as if I would end up living out east. So lives in Virginia. See where this is going, various things I have seen in dreams and in just momentary glimpes as I was driving see to point towards my SO. Perhaps I will get lucky and he is 'the one' Current Mood: thoughtful (Comment on this)
Thursday, January 5th, 2006
2:02 pm	The coming year I don't typically do card readings for myself. Don't know why I just don't. I think perhaps it is cause it is frustrating to do a layout and yet the cards don't have anything to do with where they are. Tis hard to explain but eh so is the case. well on New Year's Eve I did a tarot card reading for myself. The question/queary simply what lies ahead for me in the coming year. For once the cards cooperated *chuckle* actually that is a lie it is just this time the cards and their placement actually went together. First time in a long time. Anyways it was an interesting reading. I was 'told' my current environment was causing me weariness, fatigue, exhaustion etc and that there is a need for a rest or break. I am currently being oppressed and stressed out due to responsibilites and obligations and that I need to examine the distinction between exploiting and being exploited. There is a longing for simpler, less complicated times; a desire to ressurect the past. I shall successfully finish a project, and leap back into the mainstream of activity after a period of withdrawl. I also fear to act because of the possibility of being misunderstood. I will be experienceing creativity, inventiveness, self-reliance and self-confidence. Then there is something to do with the legal system that with the card placement makes me think it has something to do with my sons. THere is some lack of emotion due to avoiding emothinal entanglements. My decisions will be based on facts informed by feelings. In short feeling something and finding proof to go along with those feelings. In teh end though self-forgiveness. Really most of it made sense. The only thing that really doesn't is the self forgivenss part. Maybe I finally learn to forgive myself for having feelings and letting them show since currently I try really hard to not have any feelings or at least very few of them. cc: ladydark Current Mood: hopeful (Comment on this)
Tuesday, November 29th, 2005
11:56 pm	Squire This person I am not sure what to think of him. Squire is actually his character's name, one of his characters I believe. Anyways, I am not sure what to think of this guy. He is roughly my age. I can't remember what he told me off hand. Lives in up state New York or at least New York. There is a comfortability about him...almost a familiarity. I like it in that I smile whenever we get to talk and RP. In fact writting this and thinking about him causes me to smile. I am a little leery of it cause well this is how I felt in my last relationship before it all well to hell. It doesn't help that I know very little of the guy. No I'm not going to pursue it. Just gonna let things happen however they may. Still I can't help but ponder it a little just cause of the familiarity/comfortability factor. I mean I have only known the guy, well his character for a little over two weeks now. Blah.... Current Mood: contemplative (Comment on this)
9:51 pm	Vacations I have had a total of four offers as to places to visit over the summer. Three with friends and one is the Castle D'Image gather. I would dearly love to be able to do all four but I fear tha tfinances as well as not knowing what can be arranged when it comes to the boys will have more to say about it. Also I think my parents will cause me a bunch of grief as well. If I were to follow my heart, a trip to one of the married friends is a must and the visit to the other married frinds wil lahve to wait till at least next summer. The CDI gather, while not a must I am really going to try hard to attend. The other visit, i am unsure as to what will happen with it. Here are more specifics about hte trips. The married couple I won't be seeing is beacuse of the boys. My gut says when I make that trip the boys are with me, in fact we drive cuase I have figured out to drive to this set of friends would be the same roughly as the trip I made recently to Texas. Currently there is no way my two-year old would make that trip. I barely can get him to sit for two hours, in fact most times the last 15-20 minutes he is fussing cause he is wanting out of his carseat. The other married couple really I feel a driving need to vist them this coming summer. As the time passes that drive gets stronger. There is a reason that I need to visit them now, not to mention that it will be three years since I had last visited them. For some reason three is a significant number when it comes to them. There are a couple of things that i am feeling so to speak but they are minor and really nothing that I can put into words. I regards to the other trip. It is a little complicated. It would be visiting a married couple but I am only friends with the male of that couple. The female does know of me and know what I look like and such. There are feelings there more than friendship from his end for me I will be honest and say there is a sexual desire there but that is where it ends. I am a little uncomfortable with the emotional ties from him. Not completely sure why cause I know that he is married and will be that way for a long time besides I am not wanting a relationship. Anyways, then we come to the CDI gather. I really want to go to this and in some ways I am hoping that it takes place out east so that maybe I can combine the trip to the gather with the trip to see a few friends including the one just mentioned. Current Mood: determined (Comment on this)
Monday, October 24th, 2005
10:01 pm	America’s Misconception of Witches This is a paper I wrote for a class I had last semester.  To be nice due to teh length I have placed it behind a cut.  If you want to know my sources just ask because as said this was a paper for school so we had to to  a bibliography.  I have left the citations within the paper so that if one really wanted they could see what was my own thoughts and what wasn't.  If a whole paragraph is indented then that whole part is from someone elses mind.  If there is only a (<name>, <title page>)  The previous sentence was someone elses.  Anyways, here it is. ( Read more... ) (Comment on this)
Sunday, October 23rd, 2005
9:32 pm	True Revelations To start this journal off as an example perhaps of somethings that may come, I present to you some 'revelations' that have come true. While talking about my marriage with a friend, she said he and i would only be together for 5 more years at the maximum. I said to her I knew things in my marriage were going downhill, but it would be him leaving me. Nearly five years to the day my husband divorced me. I have had three friends tell me that I would have three children. One friend said one boy and two girls. It was also said by one that the father of my second child would not be involved in my life long after the child was born. I have said that my oldest would have my hentle heart, my second would have my firey spirit, and my third would have my peaceful soul. It was and is agreed upon my children are and wil be very gifted in the physical world such as with sports but also in the mystical world. So fat I only have two children, both boys by my oldest does have my gentle heart which is easily hurt. My youngest definitely has my firey spirit whish tries my nerves na dpatience every day. Both of them show signs of being empaths and both have a fascination with the mystical world especially dragons. Anyways, those are my examples of true revelations in my life. I fully expect more to come throughout my life, some being revelations of my own and others said by friends. So ends this first posting. I hope you enjoyed and look forward for more. (Comment on this)
7:42 pm	Self Revelations In my random conversations with myself and sometimes with someone on the other side and sometimes with a friend in the physical world, the following revelations have occured. I shall live to somewhere between the ages of 60 and 70. I will be hurt violently and the injuries from that incident are what eventually kill me despite the doctors best efforts. My life mate and I travel a great deal, especially to one particular place in Scotland I beleive (I will have to look it up and I will expand on this one in a moment) My life mate and I will have 25 to 30 wonderful years together. It is from this relationship I have my third child. A girl with soulful brown eyes that are so dark they almost appear to look into your soul when she looks at you, she also has dark hair. Once I leave this world my mate's will to thrive is no longer there and passes within 6 months of my passing. One by one my friends closest to me pass away over the course of 20 years. AS with the traveling with my life mate...This one came about as I was reading a book about haunted places. The book didn't give much details about the places, mostly a map and directions and a very brief description of what haunts there. This book had 101 places in it and only one triggered a vision. As I read it I saw in my head the car we had rented pulling up to the gate of the house. The gates by the way are said to never be opened again until a Stewart I think sits on the throne. Anyways, i ask my husband to stop cause I want to take a picture of the house through the gate. I take one picture and I feel in my gut that there is something near the gates. I take a second photo and as I lower the camera the gates begin to open. I don't drop the camera but I don't realize I still have it as I am drawn towards the gates. The next thing I know I am walking trhough the gates and my clothing changes to a light colored medevial styled dress, it isn't white but perhaps silver or a very pale blue. The dress is a very regal and flowing. I walk straight up to the house. There is a groundskeeper and he is surprised that I cam from the direction that I did and asked how I got there. I turned and when I did the gates were closed but I still pointed to them and said, 'They let me in.' My lifemate is coming toward me from teh direction that visitors normally do and is just mystified by what happened. That ends this post as I can't think of anything else to put into it. There will be more to come I am sure of it. Blessed be and light be with you. (Comment on this)